| Sometimes I go into my hall and need to
move from my seat because of someone's perfume being so strong. I have
2 other sisters in my hall that I know of that have MCS.
Sometimes when I have missed meetings I
almost feel like I have done something wrong when I am finally able to
make a meeting. I feel the friends look at me. I know they don't understand.
Although I did get some good encouragement
from a sister that I have known for a long time. I told her how I felt
bad that all the new ones in our hall hadn't know me pre-cfids and pre-fms.
She said I remember! You had book study in your home for years and always
tried to auxiliary pioneer when you could and kept a clean house. Made
me feel so good that someone remembered me when...
She also mentioned that Jehovah never forgets.
So I try to keep remembering that.
It's been real hard lately. The news meds
are not working and so I am now dealing with suicidal thoughts. Never had
them before. Also that new drug Wellbutrin, for depression has made me
gain weight. So its back to the drawing board again.
The new system will be here and we won't
even remember how long we suffered. Won't it be so nice to want to wake
up and feel good doing it?
Philia,
Sue
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